Sunday, February 18, 2007

Crush

My first real crush was in high school. I was a senior and A was a friend of my sister (memo to the sister: did you even know this?). She was vibrant and funny and made up her own vocabulary for things. I loved that about her. She was tall ----- taller than me ----- with an angular haircut and a great sense of style. Things were just different when she was around and I liked that.

At the time, I had no idea that I had a crush on her. I just thought that I liked her because she was so funny. I had yet to receive that internal "hey, you're a lesbian memo." And when I went to college and realized that I was gay, it was a slow realization: I just thought that everyone felt like I did.

But ultimately, A was that source of that realization.

4 comments:

Remiman said...

Revalations can be such a wonderful thing...or not.
I liked this vignette.
rel

sognatrice said...

Sweet post for some sweet emotions. And I love your name ("sassafras mama") :)

gautami tripathy said...
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gautami tripathy said...

I agree with remiman. I love this vignette too.


gautami
Painfully yours..