Sunday, February 17, 2008

My Best Creation (to date)

One reason that I chose to participate in the Thing-a-Day urge to creativity is that it happened in February. February is the month in which my son was born, and though it's been 8 years, I still remember the feeling of pregnant waiting in the first half of the month, the joy of his birth on the 17th, and then the trial-by-fire back half of the month, when I was a boy's mama for the very first time.

Perhaps as a result of this experience, I regard February as a transformative month: everything in my life changed in February 2000. February has been good to me and it seemed like a good idea for me to be good to February. Today's creativity is a few thoughts about my life as a parent.

When you're a kid, birthdays are great fun and so exciting. You don't really think about what the birthday means to your mama. JT's birthday means so much to me. It's a chance to celebrate my son and also to think about my first few weeks as a mama, when I was alternately joyous and anxious. I worried about EVERYTHING. These days I'm (mostly) more relaxed about things, more confident in my ability to know what my son needs, more able to trust my parenting instincts.

I think of February 17th as the best day in my life. I know that I am the person that I am today because of my son. He makes me laugh and he reminds me of what truly matters in life. I know that he keeps me strong, even when I don't want to be strong anymore. He reminds me of what matters most in this world.

Happy Birthday, sweet boy. Your mama loves you very much.


JAXTER said...

JT you are one lucky guy - and a very Happy Birthday to you - Many Hapy Returns xox

Sharkb said...

Happy Birthday to JT and his Mama!

Sharkb said...

And it goes without saying that JT has himself one fine lookin' mama!